Law of Attraction

October 5, 2010 4:00 PM

                                I am in my office now… I don’t have any Particular content in my mind to write …But still I want to write something now … (By these words, you may guess that I must be in Bench without Projects)…

Yes! Am in Active Bench now. Active Bench is a place in an IT company, where the employees can discover themselves. They can do whatever they want to do rather than doing whatever the PM wants us to do…

So long I haven’t posted anything in this blog…Its just because I was fully involved in developing “Fatal Memories” story to a full-fledged script… Thanks to my friends Pawan and Rakesh who are encouraging me by hearing the plots.

And Yeah…The Movie “Endhiran (Robot)” released last Friday…If you are a person born in Tamil Nadu , It is like a mandatory thing to watch “RajiniKanth’s” movie in Cinema Hall within a month and the date of Rajinikanth’s movie release will be like another diwali in Tamil Nadu…Since I have also born in TN,  Day before Yesterday I saw the movie . I have even changed my usual schedule for seeing that movie …Since the show time was evening 7’o clock … I got up early at morning 7’o clock … went to office at 9:00 AM (see…A Movie can make me punctual ).

It is true that most of the people are not seeing a movie as a movie …In the case of “Robot”, 99.99987% of them have seen this movie only for Rajini kanth and 0.0001% for Shankar , ARR and Aishwarya respectively. And I belong to the 1^st category … Without the three persons who dare to see the scenes like 37 yrs aunty singing a duet song with 61 yrs old grand-pa…In reality just imagine what will happen if a 37 years lady tells a 61 yrs old-man ..“You want to seal my kiss...boy you can’t touch this”…woff !! can’t imagine such things…  

In Real world is it possible for a 37 yrs woman attracted towards 61 yrs man or the vice- versa ?

Yesterday , One of my friend named Vineeth explained me about the opposite sex attraction … He told me that Guys and girls have same thoughts and feelings … The thing  is that  their hair style  and some organs  are different from us and because of that we are attracted .

Though the sentence seems to be simple, the truth and actual understanding of that sentence is beyond our normal way of thinking …

For example, if all the boys in this universe “except me”, are suddenly getting their hair style, organs and voice-tone similar to girls and am the only left alone guy in the middle of them …What will be my condition???

WTF ….it’s truly unimaginable than Aishwarya singing to Rajinikanth ..“You want to seal my kiss...boy you can’t touch this”…

Why am getting weird thoughts like this???

Is it because I have seen Endhiran Movie?

Is it because Vineeth told me about a great “law of attraction “

The Answer is “NO...”

It’s just because I’m in bench now and I have no other things to think about ….

Time is now 4:40 PM … Hence I spent 40 useful minutes by writing  this useless post …

Give me the Solution

Well, As usual i have been sitting back and thinking too much....... But this time the thoughts coming into my mind are truly multidimensional..


I figured out that there are certain changes within me.....
Few of them are,
1. Not writing stories .
2.Too much bothered about Work 
3.Too much bothered about future 
4.Too much of useless thinking 
5.Cannot think of a resolution for problems I face.

We would be happy if they have given us a 50paise chocolate instead of this certificate

"Idhula Photo vera" - Commented by my Friend Balaji

Tell me what should i do ? 
Case 1:
 Be an IT Professional , go to UK or US in coming years , earn well , marry a wealthy beautiful girl , have 2 good kids , bring them up well , go for old people associations , and die with your family and friends near you 


Self Analysis of Case 1:
 I would rather die now than after wasting 50 years like that .... 


Case 2 :
Resign the Job... study Film making , work part time somewhere just for the sake of earning money. Make beautiful movies ( I mean it ) , write a Novel, which should entertain people of all over the world.. 


Self Analysis of Case 2:
In reality , very very low chances of this happening. Why ?....Who will give money to Produce and market my movies????? ....And I'm not rich like you.....And I also exactly dont know where this path will lead me .And how would my family react if i go and tell them that Im going to make an Movie..
 Throwing away a good career in engineering for Cinema? 


Preferred Solution:
There is a chance of making it possible...Make some money for future by extending the own-business ( Open up new branches of spiffy systems all over India ), Become a Multimillionaire ...come back and get in to film making ....
But... , at what age ?..... 67 ?????  or 70 ??????




What should i do ? Does any one else have any other ideas  ( if you have, comment it )...

Im in Mumbai :) :(

Yeah that's the reason am blogging after a loooooooooong time.... .

And now for those who are asking  me " why the hell you are in mumbai ? " 

The answer is-  i got a better job here and hence i moved .

and now for other few who are asking me "why mumbai ??? you can't get a better job @ chennai?"

The answer is :- if u r ready to give me a job with monthly salary  50000, Please call me

I seriously miss my friends there in chennai and nellai . FU**. .I dont even have time to clean my camera lens .... I don't know when am going to direct my short movie... .The climate is chill here everyday....

                                                With friends @ Office Canteen


The only thing which  moves my life in a better  way  here is "friendship" .how the hell im getting friends of similar mindset or character where ever i go.....Thanks to all my new friends ....... But , then  still im missing something now ... 

what is  the biggest challenge in life ?

It is to identify what you really want in life ., 

Im 22 years old ( Adult ) and i  know what i want in life , but i am lacking the courage or money to pursue it 

OKAY.. . never mind.... ."Nothing is permanant"..  i know that things need to change in life some day or the other ......And I hope soon i ll start doing something what i have to do for me  rather than what i have to do for my Company... 

New Girl In My Life

Before 2 years  , I was on love with computers... Every morning i ll wake up by seeing her face ( Monitor ) , Even In the college, During Lab hours , I will  sit in front of her and will touch her hand ( keyboard ) all the time with lots of love.. .. As a result ,  I got selected in  an IT company in my final year... ..

 20 months goneeee..............

And Yeah.. The IT company called me now ( wow!! yeah....after fuckin 20 looooong months !!!!! )  to join at their Mumbai office

"What the fuck".. Few of my friends say .. "you  have wasted these months by sitting simply @ home". .And few other "very much concerned" relatives say .. "You must  have at least done your higher studies which might have given you a Masters degree"

I bet those everyone " The 20 months experience which i have gained by sitting simply in  home  is far beyond the experiences given by any IT company or whatever company "

And yeah.. Am going to miss the 20 colorful vetty months in my life for sure after reaching Bombay...Oh..sorry, "Mumbai"..  Jai Maharashtra :).. 

In one of those 20 months,  I planned to make a short film with my friends selva and Elan .. I prepared a 15 minutes script.. did tutorials on Sony Cine-score, Cleared my camera Lens, Visited and fixed Locations ..But,  due to  many critical problems ( non availability of female character !!! ) , the film was dropped in the middle Though it was dropped, My love towards making a Feature Film sharpens ..... I begin to avoid  my old crush ( computer programs) and started to go behind Cinema.. 

Places I Visited with Selva and Kutty For Making my First Movie...

After that , Making Cinema  is like Making love :) for me   ..You know , when I  write the script, when I handle  my camera,  when I mix the Frames, When I take Photographs.. I just feel like ...I am in love with my Camera and have to make love ( Feature film :P) soon..... 

But I got the date of joining now  ( "hell"..... . i got it after 20 months ) ..Yeah I had crush with computers before 2 years  ...But she dumped me by telling reasons like  recession and world economy  ..and now she s back to form like samantha :P ( in the climax scene of  - VTV Telugu version  ) and wants me to love her back.. And now I have to chose between computers ( ex gf ) and Cinema ( one side love :( ) . ......

And after so many random thoughts, I decided to satisfy my ex-gf as well as  my one side love....  ,,,

I dont want to be one of  those 55 year old man who says "Damn it...I have wasted my life working for others...I should have  been a movie director at the age of 25 itself" ..... 

I will direct a movie for sure..  And for that i need to earn some money now ....

So the first phase for "directing a movie" is to earn some money.. .So I am going to undertake the first phase of my life by going to the job now  to make my one -side love story a grand success....

So i am going to take my job for bringing my dream to real....

Dreams are something which wont come true without tremendous effort and fast chase  . And yeah I am happy with chasing my dream of directing a feature film  ( new girl of-course  )......

 

The Three IDIOTS in My Life

Ist Idiot : - My School Teachers

They thought me only 2 things in my school....

1. Doctor ( A guy who is good in studies will become ) 

2. Engineer ( A guy who is not good in his studies will become )

So, I made up my mind to become an Engineer :)

2nd Idiot : - My Computer  

At the age of 14, I  became crazy about computers.. I thought,  "learning new things in computer will make me  rich".... But whenever i learn some programming language or some useful stuffs, My system hangs automatically and most of the times if i compile my program, it will automatically restart..And in few cases it also caused boot failures when I attempted to study about my IEEE Project .....

But the same system gave me a great support while  learning Yahoo chat,, Gtalk, Orkut, Facebook, Youtube , Blogger:P and many such  things .... 

Still I cant believe why my computer behaves abnormally when i do useful things using it :(





3rd Idiot : - Praveen J.Anand (Myself) 

yeah.. It's of course me...

I dont want to give reasons for selecting me as 3rd Idiot.. still if u need a reason... just read again the above 2 paragraphs and see the certification below...

Am I Mad?????

Truly , Madly, I have created this blog and writing this post with no particular thing in my mind...

But When i think about why am doing this.. many random thoughts are coming  into my mind.... some of the thoughts are the incidents that i experienced before  and others are heard / seen / felt  somewhere ...

When I was 12 , I want to become  a Cricketer and to play for Indian Cricket Team .. But when I became 16, I was crazy about computers ...  I want to be a  Software developer and chose Engineering  And  at 20 , I want to be a director ...wrote many scripts .. Now (at 22) I just feel What is that I really want in life ?

I like computers , But I hate learning something  that Some One  may get more money  with it

I am in love with cinemas....It made changes in my life .... But I Hates it to the core some times..

I don’t want to work in banks or other shitty (IMO..sorry if it hurts ) govt office jobs ...  . Please mom ,  don’t force me to prepare for govt exams

I thought, I am different from other guys... But like most of the guys,  I got  screwed up by a Girl .. I dont want to get into details.. Shit , i cant forgot her .. 

I got a job offer from a  company . I thought my life will be changed after joining the company.. But only the World Economy Changed ..and the Company was worst affected by recession .....And I'm jobless  . WTF 

And I dont damn care about my religion or  status or job or caste  or  God or  whatever personally  ... but everywhere everyone  are asking me the same....

At last,  few  questions to the creator ( jesus or allah or rama or whatever u call ) : WHY u have  created this world ?????, what r u doing now ?? and what u ll get by doing it ?? And who created u ?? whether u r the source or u believe that someone else had  created you ??? if you believe  ask these same questions to ur creator

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Am I the most confused soul in the world ????

If I  ask this question  to my friends .. .They 'll say "Don’t worry Praveen , you will get over this"..  .. 

Is it so ??? if i ll get over  .. then answer me When ??

Do you guys think I am mad ?   My illusions will Continue ... :)